OH MY GOSH! SHE'S NOT DEAD!
I know it must be pretty shocking to some of you that I've finally showed some signs of activity lately. You all probably thought I'd died of Swine or something of the sorts. Anyways I can't say that I'll be doing a whole lot. Senior year has got me in a spin along with work and all that lovely stuff.

Some thing you should know then. I've turned my life right-side up for the better finally and I don't plan on changing that any time soon. I thought I'd be happy with who I was before but until recently I relaized I was missing a big chunk in my life. Stephen. Now that I've got him, I'm settling down for a longgggg time. Also, I'm trading my new friends for the old ones. The only thing I got out of my newer friends was that they stabbed me in the back. Therefore, old friends will always be best friends.

As always, I'll try to post new stuff but my creativity has been on vacation recently. That pretty much sums up the story of my life currently. Ta ta for now!

I have been sooooooo wrapped up in things that you'd never understand. I've climbed in and out of depression again and recently ended a friendship with a Nameless individual. Preparing for the big AP US History test and the famous ACT, have taken up most of my free time between homework and school. My inspiration is locked away for now while I'm trapped under the destructive bonds of school. Prom is this weekend and my nerves are shot from all the preparation.

Art class currently has all my attention but I am working on a new novel idea as usual. It is still without a name so I'd love you to death if you could offer some suggestions for a title. Expect to see some random bits of work until I'm out of school and into my mind again.

I've currently found absolute unknown happiness in my oh so lovely Dylan. He's my carbon copy in guy form and our random immature outbursts are perfect together. Dylan has given me so much to look forward to everytime I wake up and I'd still be trapped without him. By the way, if you see a bear outside your window, that's most likely me in a bear costume. XD

The past 8 months have been much harder than I'd ever like to admit, but I've gotten through them without doing anything too irrational. I must say I have been tempted many times to hurt myself but I resisted knowing that by March 26th, I've been sober from my cutting addiction for over a year and 7 months!

Things have gotten much better for me lately, though the loss of my friend still haunts my dreams. I feel horrible for hurting all those people who meant so much to me during the time period in which I struggled to make a very difficult choice. So to all of you, I'm very sorry and I hope you can forgive me for the pain in the ass I was. =]

Inspiration has taken over my mind for the time being so expect to see a lot of new stuff with some surprises. I think I may have fallen in love with someone...again. <3

I apologize to all those I normall speak with everyday and even those I don't. I haven't had much time for things lately since my life has been very chaotic. Final exams had me bogged down for weeks in preparation and so far I've only failed one.

This past week has been the hardest on me. A very close friend of mine for the past five years was killed in a tragic car accident. The day after at school was tough. Classes had pretty much been cancelled and I was to the point of passing out. As of now I still miss my friend but I feel more calm and at peace about it.

I hope to be on much more as soon as all this chaos clears up. I promise to try my hardest because I have many things to put up still.

R.I.P. Andrea Dawn Buchanan. You will forever be in our hearts and dearly missed. <3

So yea... this year has been about semi-awesome but still it's been on hell of a ride. This upcoming year is full of new ideas and big plans. I don't know where life's taking me but I'm just going to sit back and let it takes me wher it wants.

I've fallen in and out of love, lost and gained friends, and totally changed who I am. I don't care what anyone thinks anymore because I'm perfectly happy the way I am.

Some resolutions I have are: Get out of writer's block,try to stay happy, and stay the fuck away from drama! I plan on keeping them but if I should fail...who gives a fuck?

Happy New Year everyone! Hope you've had a great one!